Saturday, February 26, 2011

Kindness with Weakness: Never compare!

I know many people who always try to take advantage of the other even when it is going to harm or affect the people adversely. These people are selfish, they only want their success. To them only their success, their progress, their welfare, their improvement means everything. They can’t see happiness of other people. Whenever they see someone to be happy they will always ruin their happiness by some or the other means. They envy others. But don’t to worry, they can never be the happiness for anybody. These creatures are simply ignorant of the fact that if they try to find happiness in other’s joy then they can be overwhelmed by super happiness. Doing this, they can make their surrounding full with lots of positive energy. They don’t know the miracle of kindness. They are not kind, that is their weakness.

There are some other sets of people too. They don’t seek any favour behind their work or deeds. They just don’t think for even a blink of eye before helping others. To them others’ success, progress, welfare, improvements counts. They feel content and happy when they help others, make them happy. When they drag people out of problems, they feel content. They don’t have any thing to fear, that is their nature. They find happiness in their pain. They feel the hurt & pain suffered by others. They understand that whatever they do, they will get back the same thing back from life. After all Newton’s Law applies in all aspects of our life. These kind of people are full of enthusiasm & energy. These people are loved by everybody else. They know their meaning of life. Whenever they can help any needy person, they feel themselves grateful. This is their weakness, they are kind.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

I want to quit addiction!

This is about my very close friend who is a addict. I don’t know what is this addiction known as globally but here in Kolkata people call in “Dendrite Addiction”. Dendrite is a adhesive glue used to paste some broken things and the smell is breath taking. Dendrite is put into some plastic bag and then the smell or odour is inhaled through nose or mouth. This is a chronic disease which can lead to kidney failure, liver disease, damage to bone marrow, nervous system breakdown, memory loss to name a few. If a person is seriously addicted to dendrite then he can live a life of maximum ten years.

Question arises why people do inhale dendrite? In most of the cases here, the main reason which I found is that when you inhale dendrite you don’t feel hungry. But when you are starving and there is no food to have, may be it seems easier to inhale this to supress appetite or hunger. This is very pathetic situation to feel. And mostly the addicts are street side children and school students. I personally feel very sorry for their life’s condition.

Rohit(name changed) is a very good person by heart. He is good at studies, optimistic, helpful, enthusiastic etc. Overall a nice person to be with, which I believe. But unfortunately he is a “dendrite addict”, he wants to quit it but he can’t help stop inhaling. Few days back, he was taking dendrite along a quiet road and suddenly two policemen came. First they slapped him hard, then in the next move they took him with them and thrown him behind the bars. He begged them to let him go but police always have deaf ears, all those persons are hungry for money. After, 5 hours someone informed his parents. They came to the police station terrified, requested the officials to release him but it was of no help. The officials kept him in the prison till next morning.

I have been to his house, I had a brief talk with him about the matter. He was very sorry for what he did. He was apologetically saying that for him his parents went to jail, which I feel is very unfortunate act which one could do being a child. When asked,"why don’t you quit dendrite?” he told that, “I want to quit it. Even I have minimised the number of times of inhaling dendrite. I can’t completely stop it. I want to but I can’t because when ever the urge for inhaling dendrite comes then nothing except a tube of dendrite & a poly bag can make him calm and once they are in my hands i can’t resist to inhale them.” His parents are aware of the fact that society will make fun of their family, may be people even dislike him for his this habit. But they seriously needs a doctor for him. I know they want their child to experience hell at this age of early 20s.

He needs help. He asked me for some homeopathy medicines for quitting dendrite. I am into my research for him. Found some rehabilitation centres in Kolkata. If someone can give any more information on this regard then it may save someone’s future. Please! it is not possible for me to eradicate these nuisances & nasty practices alone. I need your help, support & love. Leave comments on how can you help people around you to quit chronic addiction. Help them, save life.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Promises Made! Hopefully will be kept!

Each time I make a promise, somehow the promises I made could not be kept. Sometimes I broke the promises & sometimes to whom the promise has been made went away from my life. Today after introspection, I found that whatever the times be being a part of the promise I must at least try to keep my words of confidence intact. I must be true to myself, which doesn’t means just to promise & forget, but to promise and keep the promise. I have always believed in honesty that is what my parents taught me in my childhood and I will always be the same honest true person through out my life. Life is one & I want to make it a meaning, so that when ever I retrospect, I can smile & feel proud of my deeds.

Yester night I have realised that I get much more satisfaction & pleasure when I write things down. I believe this to a good medium to be closer to my dream. And this practice will help me to improve the language itself in which I prefer to write. Though I can give my best in non other than English. I didn’t tried my hands at Hindi but I believe I can pretty well execute my writings in plain Hindi.

Some of my friends complain, “Why I do lot of Facebook & Twitter?” The answer to their very question is simple and precise, i.e. Whenever some idea clicked into my brains I write it in my cell phone & GRPS and some social networking software like Snaptu helps me to update my status in these social networking websites in few seconds. And I am very delighted to say that some of my friend loves to read my updates, sometimes they even copy my update and paste the same in their updates. This makes me a happy man. I love it.

I believe a lot in my potential to write. Though I couldn’t give much time to writing. I promise myself to write at least 4 blog posts in a month. I have realised on more truth of life, i.e. In life whatever condition you be, you are the only one who will be responsible for your life’s days. I have seen lots of dream through my eyes in this small life & I want to see my dream in reality. I want people to learn this. I find this to be the best way to stay fit, stay happy. May be this is my start, I want my end in a dignified manner. And believe me friends the road I have chosen for me will not be a easy one to walk through. And I have to fight a good fight to see the end of the road. I may fall thousand times, but I will stand the one thousand and oneth time. This I promise tonight.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Mood Swings!

Today I was going through many sudden mood swings. And I think, I know why so?

Somehow opened my eyes after 4 hours of sleep through all the day. Reached college late by almost 30mins but that was not the problem anyway. Exams are at hand, so downfall in the attendance only 5 students attended the class. Like the class the duration of the class is also decreasing respectively. Though the main purpose of going college today was mainly for submitting the Internship Training Report. After the class, gone to the near by tea stall; had a fag there which was by courtesy: Sourish. Thanks to him. Got some phone calls & couple of messages from friends that they need my help in completing their Training Report. They were in the IT lab, which use to be my semi-favourite place sometime back in college. Now, the perception is completely changed. Helped some of my poor buddies. They will never change. Though I help them just to receive lots of thanks & blessings.

One thing I would like to blog about here now is about: Shomo Shuvra Das, one of my best friend of college. He is such a dickhead, you people have no idea. This fucking pain in my neck didn’t bothered to complete his Training Report. And today even I didn’t bothered to help him. Do u know why? I could have made his complete project in matter of a day. but can this help him to get over with the problem he is facing to cope up with TR? Of course not. But I don’t know ‘How to make him understand this simple thing which will only benefit him but no one else. He was upset with me today. He didn’t talked to me much. But instead I made a hell lot of fun of him in front of many colleagues. He is hanging in between: pass & fail. I wish he can pass the TR with reasonably good scores. So is the case with: Tanuj. Same wishes for him. I hope Arpita grant them permission to present the TR some other day. Best Wishes Guys.

After making fun and insulting him, I went to Library for studying my TR for Viva. All was good, until she came to library. (Sorry I don’t want to name her.) After she moved away from me, I find it very hard to face her. But after those unfortunate happening I was all right with whatever happened because the reason she gave for breaking up was pretty reasonable. I understood her problem. And I personally never wanted to carry a relationship in grey matter. And she told me ‘She will love me forever’, which is a bullshit. I was pretty emotionally attached with her. She took due advantage of that, which I can realise now a days. I thought she was true to me. But she proved me wrong & many people to count. There is some other guy with him she is going around with. I know that guy well, he is our classmate. But it would have been a foolish idea to let a girl go if she is willing to go around with you. My friend took the favour offered by that b****h. Sry Guys! I thought for a while about our relationship. Her promises and all the love she had for me.(I m not sure if she really loved me or made me a fool.) Then her meaning in my life changed like the Kolkata Traffic. She was trying to talk with me in the Viva, but I reacted rudely with her and with her friends too. Apologise! And of course what I told my friends today, i.e. the definition of girls: they are like the buses, if one goes next will surely come in few time. Even then for what she did, else doing she have no hint that I know about what she is trying to end up with.

In the viva exam, got good marks. 90/100 is not a bad marks either. But that is to some extent due to my professor as he was lenient towards the mass. I was well prepared for the Viva but a single gaze of her screwed everything today. I am not happy within. I was not the one before which I am now. I have never used such abusive words for anybody that’s a history now. I want peace of mind. I want to forget her. I had almost 2500 msgs in my phone but thank god my phone crashed so the msgs because i knew I would have never deleted her single msg with my hands. I think even God don’t want me to be a inch close to her. After coming home from giving routine tuition, i went right inside my bed. Nothing came into my mind to do right then. I wish only one person reads this: Prasun K Das, my cousin brother. He directed me to write this draft. He is the only person whom I think knows me better than me.

Now, I can sleep or pretend to sleep quietly.

I don’t know, if I am doing right by publicly stretching the personal issues. I am sorry!